lost days!

Ok so I haven't been very good at keeping this going, I have been taking photos I just don't seem to have the time to upload them, resize and get them on here. My entire life has changed so much in the past two months, changed like you wouldn't believe.

Having a sick parent on the brink of death really brings it home to you how precious life is, family is and loving parents are. It also brings it home how much I actually rely on my father for help and advice and honestly I just don't know how I will cope without him when that time comes.

I met M and our relationship is growing from strength to strength, he makes me feel special and tells me that I tick all his boxes, its just so easy to get along with him, we seem to like very similar things.  

After three weddings in a row I came home on Sunday evening and attempted to cut the grass. My mower kept breaking down and after several attempts to start it there just seemed like nothing left to do but sit down on the wall and cry, which I did. I cried from sheer frustration and also from thinking about how if Dad were here he would know what to do to fix it. So although I am an independent gal really I probably depend too much on Dad.

Can't even type about it or I cry, I love him and he is doing well now, they even came to visit me :)

Happy thoughts!